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1:18 p.m. - Apr. 01, 2002
Trouble Me
I am amazed, once again, at the reflection in the mirror...the timing that the universe has, of providing the things that I need to see and hear, exaxctly at the time of MOST needing to receive them.

My friend, Crandall sent me an e-mail this morning, with sone lyrics from an old 10,000 Maniacs song (Trouble Me). Damn, I love that song. Words that I so needed to hear. Lyrics that sing to me about my own personal "situation"...and the silence.

So, I cut & pasted them into an e-mail to Adam. I didn't say anything else. I will not continue to humiliate myself.

He won't return my phone calls.

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Trouble me, disturb me with all your cares and your worries.

Trouble me on the days when you feel spent.

Why let your shoulders bend underneath this burden when my back is sturdy and strong?

Trouble me.

Speak to me, don't mislead me, the calm I feel means a storm is swelling; speak to me, there's no telling where it starts or how it ends.

Speak to me, why are you building this thick brick wall to defend me when your silence is my greatest fear?

Why let your shoulders bend underneath this burden when my back is sturdy and strong?

Speak to me.

Let me have a look inside these eyes while I'm learning.

Let me

Please don't hide them just because of tears.

Let me send you off to sleep with a "There, there, now stop your turning and tossing."

Let me know where the hurt is and how to heal.

Spare me? Don't spare me anything troubling.

Trouble me, disturb me with all your cares and you worries.

Speak to me and let our words build a shelter from the storm.

Let me, and lastly, let me know what I can mend.

There's more, honestly, than my sweet friend, you can see.

Trust is what I'm offering if you trouble me.

 

 

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