9:48 a.m. - Apr. 02, 2002
Just Wonderin'...
Could it be entirely possible that I am not meant to be involved in a long-term relationship? Is it possible for me to have one? Is it natural for human animals to have monogamous, life-long relationships? Is it even possible?
(I honestly don�t know�)
It seems to me, (especially now), that truly happy / truly healthy relationships really are more the exception to the rule.
My longest relationship lasted three years.
I seem to sometimes even thrive�on being alone. I like being alone. So�do I prevent myself from committing to (or succeeding in) a long-term relationship? Do I really want it? If I do, then why can�t I seem to succeed in having one?
I find that when I spend time alone, I am more creative and expressive. I like my space, my sanctuary. I like having the freedom to enjoy and celebrate spontaneous moments of dance & expression.
So�then, is it wrong? Is it natural? Are these valid questions? I really don�t think so. I think I hear my Ego.
What�s the point, to all this madness?
I�m just wonderin��what kind of relationship is RIGHT for me? And, what is RIGHT, anyway?
I�m taking a break�
