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2:48 p.m. - Feb. 16, 2007 But the reason I wanted to write was because I am feeling blue today. Not only the constant fussing and lack of napping from Henry, but also we were up several times throughout the night. But not only just that, either. I won't write this in my blog, the blog that all of my friends family read ~ I'll write it here, where I am more anonymous. But dammit, I am feeling almost depressed from the lack of fucking sex. Can I just say that!???? Fucking A I need FUCKING SEX. And I want, more than anything, for my husband to initiate it. I don't want to have to ask for it. I don't want to have to remind him that we haven't had sex in over a month now. I don't want to have to keep telling him that I need sex more than once a month ~ or worse, sometimes ~ once every two months. We talk about it. We agreee that it isn;t healthy. We agree that we want to have sex, but we don;t. Ok yes, we have a 10 month old baby now and can no longer do whatever we want whenever we want, but we still have plenty of time...I mean, Henry sleeps 12 hours a night! And ian usually gets home from work around 5. I say fuck dinner...I would rather go hungry and have sex than to wait for him to spend two hours in the kitchen, watch a television show together while we eat and then go to bed. I need sex! I miss it. I have no idea how it has come to this. We used to have sex every night. When I got pregnant, we stopped having sex when I was about 3 or 4 months along. He just couldn't do it. Afraid of all the things "going on down there." Well let me tell you ~ there is NOTHING going on down there anymore. My husband hasn't (excuse the term) gone down on me in two years. In fact, I can't even remember exactly when the last time was. I miss french kissing. I want him to THROW ME DOWN, grope me, kiss me, take me. But instead, I grope him to no avail...I ask him for sex, to no avail... Henry is crying. Not sleeping. If he would just please fall asleep and take a nap....hell even just a 20 minute nap...I would be good. I'd run upstairs as fast as I could and masterbate. Yes, it has come to this. Where are my sex toys?
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