2:37 p.m. - Feb. 18, 2002
Speak, My Love
Ok, all better. Guess I just freaked out a bit...and for all the wrong reasons. But, hey, doesn't everyone go through momentary lapses of reason?
Woke up this morning and put on my smiley face for the world. Back to work. Came in and checked e-mail, forst thing. E-mail from Adam. It is so lovely, I'll place it here:
My beloved,
ahhhhhh, what a wonderful way to start my day with such words from you. I
am crying as I write this at the love I feel from you. My fingers slip
across the keys not knowing where they are going but desperate to try to let
you know that, above all, my love for you is pure and undiminished.
how best to 'speak' to you so that your heart will be clear from worry and
doubt? how best for me to communicate to you that I have never known a love
more consuming and yet sustaining than yours?
have you not awlays been with me? even in my most difficult times? even
when I searched for the strawberry haired girl at the carnival? even then
you were never that far away that I could not smell you, recongnize you by
the wonder of your beauty.
yes I was needed this weekend; I sacrificed myself to the greater needs of
others and still could not find the place where I saved some for myself. But
with your gracious gifts I have striven to persevere.
today I set my intention to the wind. I want to be with you, in our space,
at the blue asparagus, with many brave hearts and soft souls so that we may
feed ourselves and one another of the care and tenderness that keeps us
together, moving forward.
i do not know how or when but I do know that is where I want to be. I will
allow the universe to provide the transportation, reasons and timing.
You are a wonder to me and sometimes I think that you are beyond me; but
that is only when I give in to fear and doubt. I spent time this weekend
thinking; about where I am, why I am 'here' and where I want to be.
Know that, with you, is where I see my greatest glories, my richest
lessons and my best chance to be who I am. It may be a short time before we
see each other again but understand what i said before leaving houston; 'If
I am not here it is only because I have left some unfininshed work that
needs to be completed.' Hold faith that you are never so far as my heart and
near enough to whisper.
I wish you for you a day filled with love, light and the laughter of
friends.
I love you
doctorcontradiction
*** My honey is the Godfather to so many people. Selfless to a fault. I'm working on a Dr. Bach Flower Therapy for him. Should be a good one!
